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you ever mean to kill a bug, and don't quite succeed, but you've mortally woulded it?
Just a sec ago i threw a glove at a fly cuz it was annoying the fuck out of me, and now i keep seeing it trying to fly then falling, i think i injured its wing or somethin...makes you feel more guilty than when you actually kill the bug, don't it?

Ok, to the people who pay this much for t-shirts...
Why don't you just shove your money into a garbage disposal, since you have THAT MUCH of it to spare? Seriously, I know it's none of my business what people do with their money...But don't you agree that people could be a lot more noble than this? It would be ok if they were paying for something of quality. Like the coach bags. I am willing to pay around 100 for them because unlike other bags, they fucking LAST for me, and I can used them on sophisticated occasions. It's not a labels thing for me. It's spending 100 on a bag that will last me several years as opposed to buying 30 dollars bags over and over cuz the straps keep on snapping off. I would like to point out that I HAVE bought knock off bags in the past, and they always fucking break on me. So fuck it, I shell out the money and get a qualitty bag. Fuck it.
But T-shirts?! Quite frankly, I can't get behind it. Not at all. And you fucking rich girls living off daddy's money so you can run around in these 100 dollar t-shirts as some kind of symbol, go die in a fire. Please.
Do I envy having that much money? Sure, who doesn't? Everyone wants to be rich. But if I did have all that money, I'd fucking spend it on a nice appt. And then a nice car. And if I still have more money after that, I'll spend it on things that are WORTH a lot of money. And if I still have a lot of money after that, I'd give some to fucking charity! There is no excuse for wasting money even if you have a lot of it!
I'm not trying to sound like a fucking hippie here. But could you honestly give me a good reason to pay 100 dollars on a t-shirt? A basic cotton t-shirt?

Here is a question. What is the most money you have ever spend on a basic thing (t-shirts, panties, bags, etc) and explain why you did.

Chat Roulette

So this story starts out the way all chat roulette stories do.
My friend Natalie and I were sitting around doing nothing and remembered that we had been meaning to check out chat roulette. So we sign on. Natalie is pretty much skipping over everyone, especially guys, cuz guys on chat roulette are automaticall creepy even if they are just sittin around. And then...we come upon a screen. We just see a computer chair with no one in it. We figure, ok, maybe the person got up to pee or somethin. All of a sudden a fucking CLOWN pops out with a sign that says "Show tits"
We scream like banchees, shut the laptop, and run to the other side of the room. After we sat there laughing/crying for a good 10 minutes, we decide to give it another try.
THEN came the storm of penis.
But we all know about the chat roulette penises.
There are several different kinds of people who use chat roulette.

1. The people who are hanging out with their friends and want to go laugh at everyone.

2. The people who are actually looking for cam sex.

3.People who are just very proud of their privates

4. People who want to mess with other people and put it on youtube

5. People who sit around with no shirts on and are just very boring people.

6. People who just LOOK creepy.
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Whatever Westborough

People act so shocked by the Westborough Baptist Church. Quite frankly, I'm just not. What I am shocked at is the fact that so many are.
Most religious people pick and choose small areas of the bible to obsess over. Why? Because it is very difficult for people to stick to the entirety of the bible as it contradicts itself repeatedly. Why is that? Well there are a lot of reasons. One, the bible was written by a lot of different people. Two, the bible was written in Latin and later translated into every language. Thus misinterpretations were had. The bible has a ton of small messages that could be argued to be hateful and exclusive, meanwhile other sections that promote understanding and love.
Westborough...is run by an old geezer. And if I had a dollar for every time I have seen an old geezer tell a bunch of people they are going to hell...I'd be richer than this groups publicity manager. Westborough followers were started by one family, a family who fabricated a formula; bad things happen because God hates fags. Ok...so who cares?
Well they know how to get on TV. That's why. And you know what they say. People who know how to get on TV get the attention they ask for. It's simple really. They picket outside funerals. One of the most shockingly cold hearted things a person can come up with.
So lets sum it up. Crazy old man raises a crazy family. Crazy family gets the attention of news cameras. Simple, right? So why are we all so baffled? They are nothing new. And quite frankly I don't even want to picket at Fred Phelps' funeral. I'd prefer the guy died surrounded by his own crazy family and not the people that made him famous in the first place.

k thanks...

Ok...I cancelled my account on DN the other day, cuz I was very pissed out off to find that I was billed from a site that hasn't been working for a straight fuckin month! Oh not only is the site not working, no one is letting anyone know what the fucks going on! Even the most loyal members have no clue why the sites been down. I wouldn't care so much if they had the decency to say "Oh well we're not gonna bill this month cuz, you know, there is no site atm." But I feel like that was kind of a slap in the face there. Will I come back when or if the site goes back up? I don't know. Part of me feels like I shouldn't be paying for these things anymore. Most of the friends I made on the site are friended on facebook so it's not like I am going to lose touch with any of them. It was a nice community, but like I said, money is tight and I need to put it toward other things. So maybe I am just done with these alt porn sites. I barely even look at the sets anymore. I just found the community fun.

Old friends

Why do we friend people we lost touch with ten years ago on facebook?
Honestly, it's not evfen like we really care to TALK to them and re establish a friendship that already died. No!
MORBID CURIOSITY! Nothing else. We wanna see who got fat, and who got thin. Who's married? Did that disgusting couple ever break up? I sure hope that guy who bullied mein high school isn't more successful than I am OH FUCK HE IS! GOD DAMN IT!!! Wow, she got HOTTT!!!
(insert Seth Rogan voice. I just feel like this is a rant that would come from one of his movies) Wait, it says she is in a relationship with another girl. So...is she a lesbian or is this one of those things where girls say they are in a relationship with another girl cuz they are best friends and they think it's so funny hahahaha...? Let me check her preference...GAH SHE LEFT IT BLANK!!!! Why would she feel the need to fill the relationship slot unnecessarily but not fill out the preference slot?! Is it some kind of secret?! If she doesn't want to the world to know what she is up to WHY THE FUCK IS SHE ON FACEBOOK?!?!?!
(end seth rogan voice)
But seriously, there are some old best friends I contacted on facebook and actually caught up a little. But my contact with them is minimal. There are some I never contact at all, I looked at their profile once and now they are a minor inconvenience on my news feed. Damn you, facebook. Damn you.

Smile?

There are times and places where it is normal to tell someone to smile. When you are having your picture taken, when you are performing, when you are having your teeth whitened (I dunno...)
But for some reason, people are fixated on telling ME to smile when there is no call for it. I smile when I am amused, I smile when I am happy, I smile when I am having my picture taken, I smile at customers, you get the idea. I am not one of those people who never smile.
Now I get to the point. Random strangers walk by me, stop, look at me, and tell me to smile. It happens a lot! I'll be at the fucking train station reading a magazine and someone will say "Come on! Smile!" and wonder why I give them suspicious looks.
I don't know about you, but I don't particularly care to walk around all day like this

No..that's just silly. So why is it such a sin for me to have a straight face when clearly, nothing amusing is going on!!!! So usually I will give them a smile like this

and then they leave me the fuck alone.

Friendship

You know, as a friend, it is important to be there for your friends when they need a shoulder to lean on. But if there is someone in your life who is never around except when they need a shoulder...that's not a friend. I suggest that you stop sympathizing with their selfish asses ASAP and tell them to fuck off and solve their own damn problems. Not your friend, not your problem. And don't let them make you feel like a jerk either. Fuck them. Listening to someone bitch all the time and not getting anything in return is like working a job with no pay. And don't think of it as volunteer work either, cuz even those have benefits. I have had people in my life who would call me at four in the morning telling me they are lonely and depressed, yet when I want to do something fun, or talk about something, they don't wanna hear it. And I'll admit. I put up with it longer than I should have. Because I thought that was what friendship was. Sticking with someone no matter what. But it's not. You may as well rip out your brain and hand out peaces of it to every Whiney McBitch-face that comes along.

Here are some tell tale signs that you should walk away from a person....
-The person only talks about themselves
-They are always "unavailable" when you want to hang out
-They always seem to be causing themselves trouble and never really look for a way to get out of it.
-They always downplay your troubles with theirs.
-They've never done anything for you.
-They insist that you drop other plans to "help" them cuz they "have nobody else to turn to"
-You find yourself worrying about the person constantly.

This doesn't mean that you shouldn't listen when a friend comes to you for help. But if you feel like you are giving a lot more than you are getting, just take a moment and decide whether this person has earned your sympathy or not. Life is too short to waste on these people.

You need to get this one thing through your head first...THEY DON'T CARE!!! These people have ways of making you feel more important to their life than you really are. They can make you feel like you are their only hope and if you walk away, they are going to "kill themselves" or anything drastic like that. Don't put anything like that on yourself. I can tell you now, it's not true. You need to understand what suicide really is. Suicide is something caused by a mental disorder, which is a chemical imbalance in the brain. No one person can make or stop a person wanting to commit suicide. If you deeply and seriously believe that this person is going to so something drastic, there are hotlines. But let me tell you, I knew a person who committed suicide and he had very loving friends. So don't let them tell you that you are the only thing standing between life and death. In fact, putting that kind of pressure on you is further proof that they are no friend of yours. It's mean, manipulative, and deceitful. You don't need this sort of poison in your life. It will make you feel mentally tired and stressed.
Now that I've made that clear, don't let physical intimidation get to you either. Again, it's usually a bluff. I only add that because I had a guy threaten to kill me if I wouldn't unblock him from AIM. Weird, right?
Friends are very very important. Don't let people taint the name of friendship so they can use you as a punching bag. Unless you are into that sort of thing. Then by all means, go ahead...punching bag.

Lady Gaga

Okay, I don't listen to a lot of pop. In fact, I hate most pop princesses. So what is it about Lady Gaga? Why do I LIKE her....
Well, I think the first thing that caught my attention was her videos. I took a semester on surreal and experimental films and I learned to interpret all different sorts of imagery, and her videos presented a nice challenge. It's not like other videos that just show a bunch of people dancing in a club. And she is actually making a statement that isn't "Everyone look at me! I'm hot!" because Gaga doesn't NEED looks to pull off her career. She has genuine talent in voice, instrument, writing, and visuals. Unlike most pop divas, she has something substantial to offer. At first listen, her music does sound like typical pop and disco. However, upon further investigation, it seems clear that she didn't really write it that way. It seems that she writes her songs in more of a lounge club style, and then she adds the beats to make it relatable to everyone. Sell out? Maybe. But at least she does write it herself.
She is a child prodigy/tragedy. Most child prodigies grow up to be very very weird. Why? Because they feel they have no place in this world. They are smarter than everyone their own age, but lack the maturity of those with their intelligence level. So they end up pushing themselves to be older, or dumbing themselves down to fit in with their age group. Gaga ended up at NYU, but then ended up doing drugs and dancing in a go-go club. Her father stopped speaking to her, believing she was genuinely crazy. But hell, the crazy ones write the best music and make the best art. So I suppose that is why I am always drawn to crazy. They give me something to think about.